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Rob and Bigg

the boi in these series of pics is my best friend kennyyy.hes an amazing friend.he only wants best for me.he looks out for me and cares alottt.hes never left my side.i really miss him.we dont hang out as much anymore.but i wanna change that.cuz it feels so weird not talking to him all the time evn tho i hate txting him and he knows this becuz hes boring to txt.:)lol. he knows this.

i reaallly wanna change the not seeing him often thing.hes a great guy.im never bored with this guy.

well yeah i just wanted to put up some pics of me and kenny.lol

veronica

yea,kewl my first post.

so this grrl in this foto with me called me today.weird thing is i dreamnt bout her last nite.i dreamnt she made my mom cry becuz she dint want anything to do with us anymore. she called me to tell me kinda the same thing i dreamnt bout.she told me bout wat i missed at church todayy,she told me i missed out on so much and as she was telling me bout all the exciting things shes been doing in her church life,i began to think bout my dream.then she tells me she doesnt want anything to do with the world anymore.that shes completely onfire for God now.and this world is nothing to her.which really im very happy for her and so proud of her.shes gonna make it to heaven someday.how does her fone call relate to my dream?

im still part of this world.im strugling wid departing from this world and giving my all to God.

ive been so tempted to leave the church and be who i used to be.that person had a lot of friends,shes was content wid her life and wasnt constently tearing herself apart with wats pleasing to somebody else and not her.

the grrl in the picture would never know how im feeling or wats going on with me.she was my best friend.the one person i could always confide in.with wat lil trust i gave ppl she had almost the most.we meet sophmore year,and instantly were joined at the hip.we barely left eachothers side.u know all that bff stuff.but she was more then that, veronica was my sister.she still is.she still is considered family to me and my family.

that year i also met another grrl who would impact my life.sasha.

sasha was in to of my classes and i became friends with her b4 i met veronica.sasha instantly had a transformation.she was this grrl ppl told me to stay away from or watevr to something beautiful.she was now a woman who was serving God.she bcame pentecostal.

al three of us grrls became good friends.and the summer before our junior year.sasha invited veronica to her church,then veronica invited me and then from there on my life was never gonna be the same.

i had never seen anything like it.there were ppl running around and screaming in werid sounding languages and ppl shouting feedback to the preacher.i was amazed.but the one thing i cannot ever forget was the first time i felt a presence in that building.omg that feeling.i was some barely catholic grrl who never was interested in church and that day , july 3rd 2007, somthing in sparked.

me and my newly best friend soon were coming every service and were hooked....well i was still alil hestatient and very stubburn.my parents dint help out with that either.i still have a very hard time with them bout me going.

so vero and i became pentecostal and wat not.

and now im struggling with keeping it up and veronicas doing fine.

......................................and me and her are still no longer best friends,she decided bout 3 times to longer be my best friend.

i miss her alot.